Terrified

I just saw this new video from Katharine McPhee and Zachary Levi (a.k.a CHUCK).I didn't know that CHUCK could sing! The video was new. The song was originally written and sung by Kara DioGuardi and Jason Reeves. I like Kara's version and Didi Benami was great too. Maybe it's because kara and didi sang it with a lot of heart and soul. You can feel it when they performed the song! But i like the new rythm of the song. I also love love love the video. it was my type of video. simple and effective.



Here is Katharine's version:



Here is Kara's Version:



and here is Didi's version:




Hayyy.. would love to be in LOVE. :)

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A lot of things have changed. People come and go. I stumbled and yet I got back on my feet. Can't find the words yet. But I'm still hanging on. :)

Testing wan tu tri

Hello blog! I missed you!

swoosh

woah! haven't updated this blog for the longest time! almost a year?! whew! can't talk much now. i just wanted to let everyone(?) know that im still here..still queer? hahaha! :D

It's FINAL. ERASERHEADS REUNITES on the 30th of August at The FORT!!!

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GOOD NEWS, from raym



allanpaul (AP)

----- Forwarded Message ----
From: raymund marasigan
To: subsandwich@yahoogroups.com
Sent: Sunday, August 24, 2008 8:37:03 PM
Subject: [subsandwich] eraserheads aug 30 08 confirmed

dear everybody

after much ado. the eraserheads concert is most definitely pushing
through.

philip morris and its brands have pulled out from the concert. but
another company is taking over the production. the turn over started
yesterday and they have already started work on the site in the fort.
so you can check.

there are good news and bad news.

unfortunately its no longer free. all the long winded registration
procedures in the red nation site is now void.

the good news is that the age limit is now 12 years old (for safety
reasons)and tickets will be sold so you dont have to wait for
confirmation and what not.

the official announcement and ticketing details will come out in major
newspapers and on the radio on tuesday.

these are the only details i know for now so no need to email me. im
just the drummer.

btw. i just got home from the last rehearsal. the band is cooking. we
will see you all on the 30th.


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OOOOOOOOOOooooooooooooohHHHHhhhhHHHHHHHHH yyyyyYYYYYYEAAAAAAAAAaaaaHHHHHHHH beyyybeeee!!

this made my frickin day. alaaaaveet! after all the hoopla! si rayms na nag confirm. ang saya sayaaaa! see you on the 30th kahit mamulubi pa ako!!! go go go!

speed up

the rules are simple. type what comes to your mind first whenever you hear these 50 words. dont think and dont go back and change. doesnt matter how random just type it!

here it goes:

1. beer: Charcoal

2. food: recipes

3. relationships: choice and commitment

4. crush: bald and beautiful haha!

5. power rangers: pinkeepay

6. life: crossroads

7. the president: deep shit

8. yummy: me (hehe)

9. cars: vintage is better

10. movie: marathons

11. halloween: costumes and candles

12. sex: erotic

14. hate: is good (sometimes)

15. fear: keeps you on your toes

16. marriage: commitment + hardwork

17. blondes: highlights

18. slippers: comfy

19. shoes: sneakers

20. asians: great food

21. pass time: bum

22. one night stand: use protection. be responsible

23. cell phone: i want k800

24. smoke: avoid

25. fantasy: unreal

26. college: friends

27. highschool: noside

28. pajamas: comfy..

29. stars: relaxing

30. fitness center: enroll now!

31. alcohol: bartender

32. the word love: good fight

33. friends: love at first laugh

34. money: shopping

35. heartache: makes you stronger

36. time: flies

37. divorce: why get married?

38. dogs: chowchow

39. undies: sexy

40. parents: i miss them

41. babies: brings you life and light

42. ex: come home

43. song: stop and stare

44. color: green

45. weddings: preparation

46. pizza: cheeeeeeeeeeese

47. hangout: coffee

48. resto: chill

49. goal: grow old mature and happy

50. inspiration: family

"It's alright.. I'm OK. I think God can explain."

- Splender

My Favorite Pinoy Commercial to date

Land of the Loving - Lea Salonga version ( featured in the commercial of SMART and The Department of Tourism "Come Home this Christmas)

Deep in your eyes is a promise
Love can be ours if we want it
Starting tonight ev'ry dream I ever knew
Here in your arms I'm believing
Fin'lly my life has a meaning of its own
Here in the land of loving I am home.

I was alone in the city
Searchin' for someone to find me
Cold empty nights and a million strangers' eyes
Here in your arms I'm beginning
To leave behind all the loneliness I knew
Here in the land of loving there is you.

In this simple room magic is made
Though the world seems unchanged
Leave the lights on I'm a bit afraid
This might be just a sweet dream.

Deep in the night love is growing
Though I had no way of knowing
That when I found you I found ev'rything I need
Here in your love I'll be staying
Fin'lly my life won't be living all alone
Here in the land of the loving I am home

-- I wish they would use this commercial all throughout the year.. hindi lang ngaung Christmas.. and ipakalat nila sa mga foreign channels like CNN and Discovery.. just like what Malaysia "Truly Asia" and Discover your Seoul.. haaaaay.. one of the few commercials that really hit home. I am definitely proud of this one. Pinakita nila ang Panglao!! ganda ganda! hindi lang sa Boracay maganda ang Beach! haha. May laban tayo! GO PINAS!

a change is gonna come

I chopped of my hair. goodbye long locks. but it's not THAT short. but i think people can tell the difference right away. i'd look like a tomboy again! i just needed to change something..anything concrete! it was a great feeling when A.C chopped my locks..gumaan kaagad ang pakiramdam ko! literally and emotinally.. so tama daw bang pagbalingan ang buhok! but i almost, always do that... my hair suffers from whatever emotional drawback that im in..well the first line of defense are my cd and mp3 collections.. sobrang dami na ang gasgas from playing songs over and over and over again.haaay.

im going to start jogging again.. kasi i gained back all the weight that i lost last year ( hanggang march of this year ). hindi ko pa nga nari reach ang goal ko.. may setback na kaagad. but that's ok. i can deal with this. tinamad din kasi ako.. wala na akong kasama mag jog.. my jogging buddy / sister eh umalis na.. so.. sabay kaming mag jogging pero ibang time zones. hehe. then next best thing eh si deandin.. pero ang layo na nya. kasi wala ng review.. tapos ung mga *ehem*.. i learned my lesson not to jog with someone cute. kasi they tend to distract me and people around me..
(sigeee. maghanap ng rason!) and siguro its time na for me to do things on my own. i always rely on people to do things for me and to be with me every step of the way.. maybe that's a part of the reason why it's so hard for me to be alone. but as you know.. im trying to change all that. i want to be a better person. (naks)

samahan na lang ng maraming dasal.. kaya yan! :D

it's purely frustratig when you have all the time (and the inspiration) in the world to write and Blogger wont freakin' load up in your computer.. and now that im rushing to get tons of things done.. Blogger came back to life! arrgh!

Closing Cycles by Paulo Coelho

Let me share with you this beautiful piece by one of my favorite authors... im pretty sure a lot of you can relate to this. :)

One always has to know when a stage comes to an end. If we insist on staying longer than the necessary time, we lose the happiness and the meaning of the other stages we have to go through.

Closing cycles, shutting doors, ending chapters whatever name we give it, what matters is to leave in the past the moments of life that have finished. Did you lose your job? Has a loving relationship come to an end? Did you leave your parents’ house? Gone to live abroad? Has a long-lasting friendship ended all of a sudden?

You can spend a long time wondering why this has happened. You can tell yourself you won’t take another step until you find out why certain things that were so important and so solid in your life have turned into dust, just like that.

But such an attitude will be awfully stressing for everyone involved: your parents, your husband or wife, your friends, your children, your sister, everyone will be finishing chapters, turning over new leaves, getting on with life, and they will all feel bad seeing you at a standstill.

None of us can be in the present and the past at the same time, not even when we try to understand the things that happen to us. What has passed will not return: we cannot for ever be children, late adolescents, sons that feel guilt or rancor towards our parents, lovers who day and night relive an affair with someone who has gone away and has not the least intention of coming back.

Things pass, and the best we can do is to let them really go away. That is why it is so important (however painful it maybe!) to destroy souvenirs, move, give lots of things away to orphanages, sell or donate the books you have at home. Everything in this visible world is a manifestation of the invisible world, of what is going on in our hearts and getting rid of certain memories also means making some room for other memories to take their place.

Let things go. Release them. Detach yourself from them. Nobody plays this life with marked cards, so sometimes we win and sometimes we lose. Do not expect anything in return, do not expect your efforts to be appreciated, your genius to be discovered, your love to be understood. Stop turning on your emotional television to watch the same program over and over again, the one that shows how much you suffered from a certain loss: that is only poisoning you, nothing else.

Nothing is more dangerous than not accepting love relationships that are broken off, work that is promised but there is no starting date, decisions that are always put off waiting for the ideal moment. Before a new chapter is begun, the old one has to be finished: tell yourself that what has passed will never come back. Remember that there was a time when you could live without that thing or that person. Nothing is irreplaceable. A habit is not a need. This may sound so obvious, it may even be difficult, but it is very important.

Closing cycles. Not because of pride, incapacity or arrogance, but simply because that no longer fits your life. Shut the door, change the record, clean the house, shake off the dust. Stop being who you were, and change into who you are.

hollow nut

It's difficult to write a blog when you dont have anything to say or to share. sometimes... life can get TOO boring.. that you cant even write anything on a pathetic blog.

But there also comes a time that too many interesting things has happened.. too many events occured.. too many emotions have been juggled that i cant even put those things into words no matter how badly i wanted to share them with other people here..is this a validation of my incapacity to write? ha = ha =P


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i have realized that i am not a DOer just like george and izzie.

I just need something to happen, I need a sign that things are going to change. I need a reason to go on. I need some hope!

- Meredith Grey

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the post Something is Missing has been removed by me since im thinking that the person on that article may actually read it and with the way that he is acting now.. he doesn't deserve to see what i've written there...who knows.. when things get better.. i may post it again.. some other day.

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Something is Missing

Have you ever had that moment when you missed someone so much that by the time that see them, you get caught up with your overwhelming emotions that you begin to pick a fight?

I do. and i hated it. i dont know what got into me and did that.. I am the kind of person that is not comfortable telling someone " I MISSED YOU".. because most of the time saying this will blow things out of proportion.. and i dont want that. i also dont like to tell someone i miss them/ or i'll be missing them.. because i dont want to feel vulnerable at the far end of the line. it happened to me once a looong time ago.. and i, for sure don't want to feel that way again. I want to be careful now and it drives me crazy... actually.. i have no idea why i'm so affected by this.

They say that it's good to be missed. But do they have any idea of the feelings of the person that is missing someone? They feel incomplete. because something is missing. and it frustrates them on what to do with that feeling..

Maybe im acting like this because i only know what it feels like to miss something.. and not to be missed by you.

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i would like to apologize to you for behaving like that earlier this day.
im not mad. im frustrated. i missed you.

Kids

It's great to be in front of the computer again!! while my nephew Miguel is still sleeping..(and he'll probably wet his Pampers and cry in about 30 minutes i presume) i snuck out here in the room to catch on my emails and stuff while there's still time left for me to do that...I've been taking care of him for the past 30 hours na..2 months and 7 days old...and He is the cutest little thing in the world!! but he cries a LOT and POOPS a LOT too!! He can generate a super nasty poopoo. huhu. I haven't had enough sleep.. and he cries in the middle of the night.. i could never get cranky at him.. how can I? when he flashes me with that really big super sweet toothless smile.. and if im really lucky.. he can even giggle at some point. it drives me crazy! hehehe. he knows how to stop my bad mood.. :P I have a preview on what it's like to be a parent. and i sure want to be one someday.. but not now.. that's for sure.. and by the way.. last tuesday.. His big sister Harriet and Mommy Gra had a food preparation presentation sa school.. it was really fun seeing ate and hart preparing food. I also saw Hearts "soulmate" sa kakulitan.. Ian, very cute and very talkative.. he's like Dennis the Menace of their class.. of course.. Harriet is the female counterpart.
here are some pictures of the school event.

This is Harriet and Ate Grace preparing the "Super Sarap Special Tunaaa Sandwich!"





GO GO GOOOO!!!

This is Ian and his Ate Shane preparing "Chef Ian's Yummy Egg Sandwich"







- when Ate and Hart were in front... Ian was shouting.. Go Harriet!! Go Harriet!! like crazy! =)
- while preparing the sandwich.. Hart tried to eat the one she was making.. hehehe. it was hilarious!!
- Chef Ian's Yummy Egg Sandwich WON first prize! He had a BIG smile pasted on his face when the judges gave him the medal.



little kids playing with cellphones.. as if they actually know how to use it. hehe adeek.



They posed like that at the same time! nobody was coaching them on what to do. hehehe. Goofing around! super kids! supeeer kuleeet!

it was a really fun day.. by the way.. i had my wisdom tooth removed.. well 1 out of 4 was removed last tuesday.. and surprisingly.. it didnt hurt much at all! i was so scared because of the stories i have heard from other people that getting their wisdom tooth extracted was one of the most painful things they have undergone.. since this was my first time ( a virgin!) to have a tooth removed from me... i was expecting to have a really bad time dealing with the pain this was going to give me.. but.. alas! in less than 10 minutes.. it was over! yaaaay!! i have to come back next month for the second wisdom tooth to be removed.. 1 month interval for each tooth. haaay.. all i have to endure now is too eat soft foods like congee for the next 3-5 days.. yay on ice cream! i have an excuse to eat ice drops.. or anything cold for that matter to help ease on the swelling and the wound part.. the dentist gave me my wisdom tooth back... ate said it's gross. but i think it's a nice souvenir! haahaha. i'll post a picture next time.. all i can show you now is my xray..



see that? number 3 was the sucker that was first taken out.. =)

and by the way.. i was supposed to post this yesterday.. but then.. my nephew woke up every 15 minutes.. and i did'nt have time time to finish this thing up. Good thing.. the helper finally came.. weeee! so here. posting my late post... =)

Okay.. update

1. Go to UST for reservations
2. Buy lettuce
3. Go to St. Francis to cheer for Harriet and ate. (GOOO GOO GOOOO!)
4. Go the dentist (huhu)
5. Rest

P.S
you can view Dean's entry in Sony Ericsson's Topshot contest link here It's on page 4 and his entry is called "SEEN". Goodluck with that. =)

Seee youuuu.

Take a shot

I would soooo love to be a photographer some day. Well.. I'm one of those wannabes and trying hard to be a photographer. Ate Con and I made a promise na once na "nakaluwag" na kami.. and everything is settled (like after grad) the first thing na bibilhin namin is one bad ass camera. ung may long lense and everything. kasi we both have this penchant for taking pictures. kahit inanimate objects pinagdidiskitahan namin. and maalala ko pala. Dean has a GREAT passion about photography. Matagal nya nang dream ang maging isang photographer... I remember.. he was soooo excited with his new camera he took pictures of anything (like bulbs, benches, people, plants) at the mall... he did'nt know that he needed a permit to do that. security people thought he was sent by the competitors to spy around the area. hahaha. luckily.. the personnel who talked to him was nice and understood that Dean is just one excited son of a gun with a camera. and they let him go unscathed... He was talking about it for weeks! Gawd. He'd do anything for photography. And i wish him all the best. Pero shempre.. pag nag aral ka dun.. sama mo ako ha? hehehe
So anyway.. for now.. i think it's okay to admire other peoples work. They are pretty blessed to have this talent. I share ko lang ang mga magagandang works of art nila. =)




























by the way. these gorgeous photographs were taken by dreamilluzion of Flickr. Check him out! great work kiddo! =)

About Feist

Feist. One of my favorite artists of the moment.. I just love her sweet voice and simple lyrics. Upbeat tunes too. Easy to listen to. was hooked when i heard her single "Tout Doucement". i instantly loved it. I don't know much about Feist, except that she's Canadian and she totally refused a million dollar offer of McDonalds to use/ or buy one of her single for a commercial. now what was thaaaaaat about? anyway.. let me just share another song of Feist's. and this is called...

xx
One Evening

The evening was long, my guesses were true
You saw me see you
That something you said, the timing was right
The pleasure was mine

The time and the place, the look on your face
Sincerest of eyes

If you're ready or not, the state of our hearts
There's no time to take

When we started both brokenhearted
Not believing
It could begin and end in one evening

We were caught by the light
Held on to the day till it became ours
The minutes went by, the cab is outside
There's no time to take

When we parted, moving on
And believing it could begin and end in one evening

When we started both brokenhearted
Not believing it could begin and end in one evening
When we parted, moving on
And believing it could begin and end in one evening

xx

Papapapa Papapa Papapaaaaaaaaa.. (dances and twirls like crazy) hehehe.

aylaykeeeeet! ^_^

New page

So ok. I changed the look of my blog. My previous cover was nice but i think it was too safe. or should i say boring. This one is quite cheesy though.(cheesy ball mood.) hehehe. I'm gonna miss it though. But enough of that.. I just want to move on and move forward from this..

Change is good.
and most of the time scary... but as i have learned from these past few months. change is just a normal process. everybody has to go through with it. at some point no matter how small or drastic that change is.

A fresh graduate like me experienced one of the most drastic changes in my life. for almost 15 years.. i was used to going to school everyday... doing tons of school work, cramming for exams, finishing projects, conducting researches, doing clinical duties and of course.. having "baon" (allowance) everyday. For 15 years i was juggling those things. and i thought i could never get out of it. and then graduation came. i was one of those people who were pretty emotional when graduation came because i knew that this was something BIG. i was scared.

I was scared because i knew that after this graduation. I will be part of the society. Living in the "REAL WORLD". NO more excuses for being stubborn and misbehaving. I should learn how to be a "RESPONSIBLE" person. and that was BIG for me..

I also made a decision to let go all of the burdens that has been holding me back from moving forward. How can i welcome change if my hands is full of things that i refuse to let go of? It won't do me any good. I have accepted that there is nothing that can be changed with what happened in the past. what i can do is to lead my way TODAY. to command what can happen to me NOW. i am GRATEFUL for what has happened and Hopeful for what the future will bring to my life.... Life has so much to offer me. and I am grateful for all the chances it has given me. So I better WORK my ass off this time.

Slowly I'm starting to learn those things.. not all of them at the same time though.. it will surely take time...but hey. I have all the time that i need. and loved ones who are with me each step of the way! =)