Happy Holidays Break

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one of my favorite postsecret to date.

Happy Holidays everyone!

sizzle or fizzle

Aloha!
after a lazy week with nothing much to do... I bled my eyes out trying to catch up on some of the movies i haven't watched yet.. so far.. i finished 6 movies... but here are the latest 3 and i decided to be a trying-hard-movie-critic. hehehe. enjoy my reviews!

1. Another Gay Movie

- my gay friend picked this movie for us to watch.. this was quite gross and I would have never EVER had the courage to see this movie alone. The movie is a low budgeted (i think) parody of American Pie, with 4 gay friends wanting to be devirginized before going to college.. they go on a boy/man hunt to fulfill this... and their individual sexual adventure begins... it was almost an American pie/queer eye for the straight guy/scary movie 1/[insert an m2m porn film title here] rolled into one chaotic gay movie.. OK.. it was sooo durrrty, filthy and has GAYdom posted all over it.. But some scenes were sooo funny and irresistibly naughty and I guess.. if you are straight/no gay friends with you or that you know of... you can't possibly relate to this movie. Well.. this movie is definitely not suitable for the faint of heart and homophobes...i think the challenge is to find the right audience to appreciate this film...Sure.. some raunchy scenes ever so often(some of which i could not stand looking at..) but hey.. some cheap laughs every now and then wont hurt right? =)

i give it a 3 out of 10 rating

2. The Last Kiss

- Dean is the person responsible for this. He was the one who introduced me to the world of the genius and super hot Zach Braff. This is his current movie to date. The film basically revolves around the life of Michael, a 29 year old guy who has got it everything going on for him. a beautiful girlfriend, Jenna who is 10 weeks pregnant, sometimes-screwed-up- friends, high paying job that he loves..and that he is starting to get bored by his seemingly perfect life. the films catch phrase is "we all make choices, what's yours?" I think this is about a point in a 29++ mans life where he needs to decide on where he wants to lead up his life... he can have the life that he always wanted.. he could screw it up.. or he can take an adventure finding out what he really wants..i applaud the movie for being realistic and relatable (is there such a word?) and the supporting actors/actresses. Jacinda Barrett was great portraying Jenna. she was sooooooo hearbreakingly real. lovable, neurotic, jealous, crazy, beautiful. and the guys were hilarious too. I love it when Chris answered the door in nude when his pal Kenny went into his pad..Rachel was quite good portraying the musician-student-cutie pie-seductress-clingy teenager. Well.. this movie is a bit of a disappointment (for me) compared with Braff's previous genius movie.. Garden State. but then.. maybe when i get into my late 20's and early 30's i can have a better much understanding on what this film is all about..But still.. this is one of the intelligent movies i have seen this year. Funny, witty and sexy. One more thing. I loooooooove the soundtrack. I guess Zach has done it again. =)

i give it a 6 out of 10 rating

3. Batman Begins

- let us make this short and simple. THE BEST BATMAN MOVIE EVER! so believable! the stunts were awesome and the story line was fabulous. It wasn't as cheesy as the other batman series that i have seen. and kudos to Christian Bale for being the BEST Bruce Wayne... Sexy yet mysterious. Though i HATE Katie Holmes... Was she even trying to act? her face was as blank as a slate. Nolan was pretty good too. He brought some definite spice in the act. Alfred was sooo adorable. ^_^ I heard they were so pleased with Bale's and Nolan's performance. that they are gearing up for another film in 2008. Can't wait for the next installment..

i give it a 8.5 out of 10 rating

"No, I know what you said

But that doesn't mean that I understand

And you don't know what I meant by that

But it's sweet that you tried

That you're on my side

If you were my head

You'd know where it hurts

You'd clean up the dirt

If you were my head I would be heard"

K's Choice - In My Head

Bummer.. -_-

Super sa init, abot hanggang singit

Sa mga friends kong nagtatanong kung bakit ako "DUMILIM" within such a short period of time..(5 days to be exact) siguro may idea na kayo ngayon kung bakit nga nagkaganoon... salamat kay Haring Araw na walang patumanggang sumisikat ng pagkainit init tuwing nagsusurvey kami sa Napindan, na kahit gaano kataas ang SPF ng sunblock na gamitin ko ay wala talagang panama sa powers nya. Kaya kahit mainit ay napilitan na lang akong magsuot ng long sleeves. Hindi halatang haggard kami sa mga pictures no? ( Ganyan talaga pag JJ. =P ) Salamat din pala sa 2 megapixels camera sa cellphone ni Ruthiee... dahil sa kanya ay naging posible ang pagkuha ng mga larawan na ito. Bayaan mo sa susunod.. dadalhin ko na ung camera ko.. Konting tiis na lang. Matatapos na rin ang rotation na ito. Goodluck sa mga next groups. hehehe. =) ^_^

update

Sembreak is over. Classes for the second semester already started.. MY last semester before the graduation in March. (wooooot!)

But even if it seems that March is only a few months away... we still have tons to do at our clinical duties... like we now have to go on our duties 8hours a day/5 days a week and one day/8hours lecture at school (geeez!) So.. goodbye muna to social life, parties, booze, pimple-free skin, etc.

We started our community duty last monday and the JJ's were assigned in Napindan, Taguig. People there are awesome, they were so warm to welcome us in their community... Though I got sunburns all over my face because of the 1 hour tour in the area kahit tirik na tirik na ang araw...

Anyway.. gotta take a nap muna... I need to "recharge" for another action packed community work tomorrow. =)

the power of black and white

Beautiful photogaphs by Dave Beckerman

still here

I AM BACK! yipeeee!

I was so caught up with school work that I did not have enough time to update my blog, My apologies to Bry.. and to those few who have been visiting this site.

Anyway, a lot of things happened while I was away.. (like for 4 months? geez!)



Finally, after 2 years of not seeing
each other... my closest PULP friends and I had a get together one stormy night at Glorrietta(I think that was around JUNE). It was a miracle that everybody was free that night (well.. of course except for Potpot who has to run back to his office to finish an article for that months issue of PJR) But still, it was great to be with them again. Thanks for the dinner.See you guys in November! We have a lot of catching up to do...right HECTOR? >:)

I love the rain

"Masaya ako pag malungkot ang panahon." I forgot where I heard/saw that line from... pero it struck a chord.. and until now.. hindi ko pa rin makalimutan.. Pero kung sino man siya... pareho kami. Masaya din ako pag malungkot ang panahon...Tulad ngaun.. Yang pic na yan sa taas.. kakakuha ko lang ... Shempre.. maliban sa malamig at masarap matulog...masarap uminon ng hot chocolate.. mas masarap kumain.. hehhehe.. pero maraming memories ang binibigay sa akin ng ulan..Halos lahat ng important moments sa buhay ko.. nandun ang ulan. Naalala ko nung elementary.. yung first time kong mawala sa recto kasama nung classmate ko..umuulan nun.. may mabait na matandang babae yung nagturo sa amin nung sakayan.. first time ko rin mapagalitan ni Mama nung nakauwi ako.. hehehe. Nung first time kong maranasan ung "walking in the rain" moment ko kasama si .... ^_^. Pero ang madalas kong ginagawa dati eh yung umiyak sa ulan.. para hindi halata.. ewan ko ba.. feeling ko.. mas gagaan yung loob ko pag kasabay kong umiyak ang ulan.. Lalakad ng pag kahaba haba.. kahit may payong ako.. hindi ko gagamitin.. masarap kasi yung paglapat ng bawat patak ng ulan sa balat ko.. hehe.. wierd no? Sa tanda kong to mahilig pa rin akong maglakad sa ulan.. haay naku.... Basta.. masaya man o masaklap ung mga pangyayaring yun.. lagi namang nakaantabay si ulan.. handang dumamay kung kinakailangan.... =)

Late Night Conversations

Stuck in a rut.

That's what this shit is.

Dean and I were talking on the phone last night without intending to sound mushy and nostalgic.. we had this discussion of some significant people in our lives... You see, we both share the same sentiments about THAT ONE person who got away... we both think that we already encountered "THE ONE". The sad thing is.. we can't move on from it. I was asking him.. when will this stop? When will the longing, sadness and emptiness stop? It is so hard to see/meet someone new when at the back of my mind, I can't help but to compare the new guy with Him. I have been through quite a number of dates.. and most of them were really great! As in if they are really good boyfriend material. BUT still, whenever I look at my date's face, I just can't help but imagine Him facing me, Him having that dinner with me. Him being that person with me. I know.. it sounds unfair for the guy I am dating... that's the reason why no matter how great Calvin or Nam is.. I JUST CAN'T COMMIT with any of them. Because I know I am still stuck with SOMEONE else. Like Dean, I know lots of girls who wants him, and I know that he's dating.. and I know that he almost fell in love with a certain girl (still undecided) BUT no matter how great the girl is.. NO ONE CAN EVER COMPARE with his SHARLENE.. We can find the greatest guy and girl ever but the INTENSITY is not there... it's just different. We don't know why we feel like this.. I mean.. They are not even our FIRST LOVE ... to hell with our first love.. I can barely even remember what happened then.. maybe they were the REAL thing you know? We tried everything to get them out of our heads.Name it we have done it.. I know the feeling.. that's why it sucks. It sucks that we can't just move on from this. Because there is this BIG QUESTION that we need to find out. We want answers.. we NEED HARD HITTING answers. WE have to hear it from them.. face to face. Dean even told me.. if only Sharlene told him to go away because she did not love him.. then he would do so. Even if it hurts.. at least things were cleared up. And because that was her wish.. he would obey. If only things were that easy...We need to fill those empty spaces.. because we dont want to go on forever like this. I am on my almost on my 4th year of hanging on to that memory... and I am scared to be like this forever... I mean, eventually I want to meet that someone who could level.. no not just level.. but to surpass the intensity of emotions I've had with Him.. I wan't to experience how to be in love with someone again.. But not now... no.. not now.



xxx to be continued xxx

Good Friday

We were supposed to do the annual "Visita Iglesia" , where we will visit at least 7 churches and do the station of the cross in each church.. We always go to UST, 2 Loreto Church, San Beda, St. Jude, Baste, Quiapo and the small chapel near Quiapo.. But this time.. we decided to visit the small chapel in Macapagal.. the one near the "Mall of Asia" . Marami rin pala ang pumupunta dun.. I was quite excited coz it was my first time to go there...it was really cool. I think St. Joseph yata un.Then.. we were about to head home when my sweet sister suggested that we go to Quezon so we can visit a church there.. and a beautiful grotto.Helpless.. we went to Quezon.. Man.. it was a looooooong drive up there.. parang Baguio ang daan. To make the long story short.. we made it to Quezon at around 2 pm. And the place was really great. It was a looong and steep way up.. but the place was really nice. Life size stations of the cross.. and at the top of the grotto is Jesus in the cross..=)

I am SOOOOO effing busy this summer. Grrrr..

Can't find the time to update my blog. BOO!

I'm sorry friends.. I can't get out of town this April.. But don't worry.. we can get wiiild in May..Bora or Fuego? Nyahahaha! See ya!


Miss you guys. =P


back to work.

xoxo

Morning Mush

Turned on the radio.. tuned to RX..

What if I took my time to love you? What if I put no one above you?

Shheeeet. Reminisce ka na naman.. For the love of God Corie.. 8 am pa lang.. wag kang mag inarts..( Eh baket naman kasi yan ang pinapatugtog diba?!!)

What if I did the things that really mattered?

I remember... last week yata un.. may nakatabi ako sa FX... kamukhang kamukha mo.. akala ko nga ikaw un eh..parehong maputi... peircing eyes.. tapos may goatee pa... pati ung pag smile nyo pareho.. pero naalala ko.. mejo mabalbon ka ng konti sa braso.. saka siya straight. ikaw kulot.(in ur terms.. mejo wavy lang.) Oh well..

What if I ran through Hoops of disaster?

Hindi ko alam.. pero lately.. lagi na naman kitang naalala.. I was busy as hell with school and other stuff.. ni hindi ko na nga minsan napapansin ung mga nagtatampo kong friends sa sobrang ka busy-han ko.. pero hindi ko malaman.. bakit ikaw ung laging sumisiksik sa utak ko...

No one would care if we never made it. We're in this alone so why don't we face it.

Hindi kaya dahil sa mga "signs" na naman na yan? The VIOS sign.( na kapag nakakita ako ng 3 red na VIOS na sunod sunod.. that means that you were here.. and somehow thinking of me). ABA! hindi lang 3 red na VIOS ung nakita ko nung nakaraan.. 6 sila na red VIOS tapos may isang blue at 2 black VIOS pa sa tabi..natuwa ako pero ang sabi ng friend ko.. invalid daw ung pag hingi ko ng sign na ganun.. kasi shempre.. MANILA ito.. natural na maraming VIOS sa kalye...ok.. cge.. bummer.

There is no room to blame one another we just need time to forgive each other

Hindi ko na inungkat ung VIOS thingy.. kahit na minsan.. talagang kahit sa harap ng bahay namin.. sunod sunod ung daan ng RED na VIOS.. wala lang.. kiber..keep in your mind.. MANILA ito.. MANILA ito..
Mejo naloka lang ako nung nasa BULACAN kami, sa may San Jose Del Monte .. biruin mo.. nasa liblib kami na lugar dun sa San Jose.. pero may nakita pa rin akong sunod sunod na red at blue na VIOS..as in dumaan talaga sa harap namin..Lord.. sign na ba ito?

What about love? What about feeling?

Ilang years na ba nung nagkakilala tayo? 3.. 4 years na ba? 2002 yun diba? Around October ba? Ang saya natin nun.. nakakamiss ung mga panahon na un.. ung masama ung araw ko.. tapos tatawag ka, just to check up on me.. tapos.. hihinga ako ng sama ng loob sayo.. tapos sasabihin mo sakin.. everything will be alright.. tapos maniniwala naman ako sau..kasi feeling ko.. lagi akong safe kapag nandyan ka.

What about all the things that make life worth living?

Naalala ko pa dati.. ung first time na pumunta ka ng bahay..una.. tumawag ka lang.. tinatanong mo kung san ba ung direction ng bahay namin..sabi mo kasi nasa dapitan ka na.. nakakagulat ka.. hindi nga ako prepared nun.. naghanap pa ako ng excuse para lang makababa ng bahay.. sinilip kita dun sa bintana sa kwarto.. sakto.. kakarating mo lang.

What about faith?

Suot mo non.. Jacket na red.. tapos naka cap ka.. galing ka sa barkada mo? Mejo hinihingal ka pa ng konti.. kasi ba naman.. bakit sa central ka bumaba? nilakad mo mula central hanggang sa amin. pano ka hindi hihingalin. Excited ako. First time mo pumunta sa amin. Lakad tayo.. ipapa photocopy ko kunwari yung grades ko.. nung nasa kanto.. nakita tayo ni ate.. nyahaha. kahit ako natakot.. bad mood yata si kapatid kaya hindi namamansin. Pinakita mo saken ung rashes mo dun sa blood letting.. wawa ka naman.. ang puti mo pala... hindi ko napansin dati.. kala ko kasi mejo moreno ka eh..Nag tetext na si ate.. pinapauwi na ko.. pero sige lakad pa rin... naghanap ako ng ibang way papunta sa amin.. para mejo matagal pa kami mag lakad.. parang ayokong matapos ung gabing un...

What about trust?

Kinikwento mo saken yung mga ka weirdohan mo.. na sinusundan mo ko sa mall.. na nasa likod mo lang ako habang naglalakad kami ng mga barkada ko..na.. nakita mo kong may kasamang guy sa Quantum.. na bagay kami nung guy.. (bagay pag umpugin.. nyahaha) ...na.. ayaw mo ng makita akong naglalakad mula Avanceña hanggang sa amin..kung hindi.. itutuloy mo yung pag yoyosi mo.. Gusto kitang I hug.. pero nahihiya ako.. ewan ko ba.. sana na hug kita nun... Marami ng text sakin si ate pero hindi ko pinapansin.. usap pa rin tayo.. Matagal ba tayong nag usap? Hindi ko namalayan.. parang kulang pa eh.. Pinapaakyat mo na ako kasi baka magalit saken si ate.. inamin mo rin na natakot ka kay ate..bleh!

And tell me baby...what about us?

Yung huling beses na nagpunta ka sa bahay.. marami ng nangyari.. maraming nagbago..Pumunta ka ng bahay.. amoy yosi ka.. alam mo nang itatanong ko kung bakit ka amoy yosi.. sabi mo isang stick lang kasi tensyonado ka..Sabi ko.. e di itutuloy ko ung paglalakad ko.. nagalit ka.. sabi mo ayaw mo ng away ngaun..gusto mo lang magusap tayo.. Gusto sana kitang paakyati sa taas.. pero biglang dumating si ate.. hindi kita mapaakyat kasi hindi nagustuhan ni ate ung pag iyak ko nung last time na nagkausap tayo.. Sabi ni ate.. ang tanga tanga ko daw.. bakit pa kita kakausapin.. Pero binalewala ko yun.. kasi natatakot ako na baka ito na yung last time na magkikita tayo..

How can I give this love a new beginning?

Buong araw akong pinagiisipan kung ano ung ilalagay sa sulat ko sayo.. Binalot ko na ung regalo ko kay Kurt.. sana bumagay.. sabi mo bibigya mo ko ng picture nya diba? Pati ung angel na kulot.. =) Kumain tayo sa labas.. kasi gusto ko sanang magusap tau.. Pinakita mo sakin ung visa mo.. ang pangit ng picture.. heheh. nakakatuwa nga.. kasi kapag nagsasalita ako.. hindi ako makatingin sayo.. dahil alam kong nakatitig ka sa akin..tapos kapag ikaw naman ang nagsasalita.. hindi ka rin makatingin ng direcho kasi alam mong tinititigan kita..para tayong mga bata.. mukhang mga baliw.. ayokong matapos ung gabi na ito. (pwede bang wag ka na lang umuwi... dito ka na lang hanggang dumating ung flight mo..)

How can I stop the rain? It's never ending

Sheeeeeeeeeeet. Tapos na yung 2 year contract mo jan. Nasa Pinas ka na ba? Hindi ka pa rin nagpaparamdam. Akala ko ba walang kalimutan. Ikaw pa nga yung nagsabi na sana walang magbago. Ikaw ung nangako na babalik ka pa rin.. na kahit anong mangyari.. mag stay pa rin ung friendship. Pero anong nangyari.. nasaan ka na?

How do I keep my soul believing? Memories of how we should be keep calling

Birthday mo kahapon.. hindi ka nagparamdam.. Iba na talaga siguro ngaun.. Marami na talagang responsibilidad. Sa sobrang dami.. kinalimutan mo na ako. Kinalimutan mo na yung lahat lahat. Nalulungkot lang ako.. kasi nawalan ako ng kaibigan. Akala ko kasi forever friends na tayo eh. diba nga.. ang usapan ninang ako? tapos maglalaro si Kurt saka si Heart together? =)

I'll take the rivers rise

Sana kung nasaan ka man.. masaya ka. Maligaya kau. As I have told you before.. I still pray for you and your family every night. Kasama kau lagi sa mga prayers ko. I wish nothing but the best for you guys.

I'll take the happy times I'll take the moments of disaster

I have those memories with me naman eh. I am happy na somehow.. naging part ka ng buhay ko. Masaya man o masalimuot, No regrets pa rin. It was one hell of a ride. Thank you birthday boi. =)

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Song Playing : What about love - Lemar

Sorry for my emotional outburst last time..Super fresh pa kasi yung issue nun.. kaya warla ako magsulat.. hehe

Well.. thankfully everything is cool now. He apologized (like for the nth time) nyahaha.

First of all.. I never really HATED him.. I could never hate a person. I may say that I hated a person.. pero eklat lang un.. Kumbaga.. I can only hate a person if TO THE MAX na talaga yung kasamaan na ginawa nya. And for the record.. wala pa naman akong taong HATE as in HATE.. I am a loving person.. not a hateful one. naks!

And siguro.. super stressed out lang ako this past few weeks about the thesis, exams, projects..kaya siguro naging super sensitive ako.. (siguro..)

Super thanks.. kasi tapos na ang defense.. Still.. hindi pa rin maka pag relax because of the Compre Exam this friday.. grrr. puyatan na naman ito..

Gosh.. a loooooooot of things happened this week.. and I don't know where to start... well.. it things were'nt that smooth sailing at first.. pero at least nung huli.. mejo ok na rin.. and it ended really great.. coz I was with my PLM friends.. (God, I missed you so much guys!) Kahit ngarag.. and super tired.. ok pa rin.. kasi matagal tagal din kaming hindi nagkikita.. actually.. it was Mac's Birthday. (though.. hindi naman talaga si Mac ang ipinunta ko dun no - clarification lang para sa mga Lemontears jien.. hehehe)

Ayun.. so para naman mejo updated kau sa mga pinagsasasabi ko..
here are some of the pictures na naupload ko na.. starting with..


... yikeees! bagal ng connection dito sa bahay.. next time ko na lang ipost.. hehehe. cge.. antok na ko.. good night people!

Galit kita

I HATE YOU!


no, actually HATE is a big word.. pero parang malapit na dun. NAKAKAINIS KA!!!!

Even if I don't talk about it all the time.. and not complaining if you bring up the topic most of the times..that does not mean that IM OK about it.. or that I'm already over it...

YOU, OF ALL PEOPLE ...you are the one who should understand kung gaano ako ka sensitive sa bagay na yun..REMEMBER what happened sa Oody's? OK.. pinalagpas ko na yun.. I know you did not mean anythign bad.. and so does Dean.. pero that hurt me.. Until now.. your words are still ringing in my ears.. I cried my self to sleep for 3 days when that happened.. Does my pain bring you happiness huh???

OK you apologized and promised never to do that again. BUT the damage was done... Can you undo what you've done? or maybe can you erase the memory of what just happened kanina sa elevator? You also apologized the last time.. pero here you go again.. throwing words at me like flaming knives.. grrrrrr.

Just leave the kid out of this mess.

This one's for Mich Dulce

SCREW YOU CAPITALIST NETWORK!


First and foremost, before I digress into these pseudo-political-punk-rock-ramblings, I would like to acknowledge my status as an alumna of The University of the Philippines Diliman (where I graduated Cum Laude, .05 short of Magna, and where I am a member of 2 prestigious Honor Societies). This, only to establish that I am not your uneducated, punk rocker high on drugs and suffering from paranoid delusions. :)

During my stay at the University, it was clear to me what distinguished us UP students from other pupils. The school gave us the freedom to think for ourselves--to be aware of the things going on in our society and to be able to make your own judgments regarding these issues. Moreover, we were encouraged to stand up for what we believed in and to speak up to defend those beliefs. Hence, the UP breed is not afraid to make their voices heard, no matter how the small the voice, how big the enemy, and how deaf the listeners may seem to be.

So what is this certain UP student speaking up against? Who is the enemy, and who are the listeners?

Most of you are probably familiar with the “hit” reality TV series here in the Philippines called Pinoy Big Brother or PBB. One of my friends (and bandmate) was admitted into the house as one of the celebrity housemates. She is Mich Dulce, the resident fashionista. Although I never really watched the previous season of PBB, I promised myself I would be an avid follower of the Celebrity Edition so that I could support and follow the antics of my bubbly friend. At first it was fun, watching my friend be herself on national TV. It was quite entertaining to see her interact with the housemates and to give life to the somewhat boring house. But after a few episodes, I was bothered by the way they portrayed Mich’s character. Here is an excerpt from one of my previous posts in my blog (this has been cut):

“I just watched PBB again last night and i was bothered by the negatively predisposed bias against mich. Halata kasi na negative yung presentation of her as an individual, hindi positive or objective man lang yung pagka present sa pagkatao niya, whereas napaka positive yung presentation sa ibang housemates. For instanc,e she was introduced last night as "designer para sa mga kabataang may kaya”. Yun palang sablay na, na-reduce yung pagiging isang "avant garde” designer niya to one who just designs for the rich. Tapos yung portrayal sa kanya na "papansin,palibhasa nagiisang anak ng may-kayang pamily” is a very biased and unfair depiction, and it jeopardizes her career and the way people see her as an individual, especially since most of the people who watch the show belong to the masses. How would they be able to identify, sympathize or appreciate Mich's character if that is the way she is portrayed? Napaka shallow tuloy ng dating at may stigma of being the "richie brat”.

Madami lang kasing ibang way to portray Mich's character instead of reducing it to the rich fashionista. For instance, naghirap din naman si mich to make it to where she is right now. Nag enter siya ng design contests locally and internationally and nanalo sya. So para din yang atleta na representative ng Pilipinas, yun nga lang sa ibang larangan, at yun ay ang sining ng "fashion design”. I think that would be more accurate than "designer para sa mga kabataang may kaya”.

Let's make our voices heard to help encourage fair portrayals of the housemates kasi hindi naman maganda na may bias yung show kasi malaki ang impluensiya noon sa mga nanonood."

I wanted my voice to be heard, even thru little ways such as internet blogs, mailing lists, etc. I wanted to give justice to the character of Mich, but to put it in a bigger perspective, I wanted to encourage the writers of the show to give fair portrayals of the housemates, no matter which celebrity. If they chose to have a negative bias against another housemate (for instance, if they portrayed Budoy as “anak ng may kaya palibhasa, kaya nag babanda-banda nalang siya”, or John Prats would be shown as “mayaman na child star kaya sa bahay ni kuya agaw atensyon siya”), I’m sure their friends, family and supporters would be upset at the false and unfair depiction of that person’s character. Most people do not have the 24/7 channel, hence they would only rely on the hourly sessions that the regular channel shows, which is already edited to fit the schema that ABS wants to execute.

Because of my desire to make my voice heard (as well as my bandmates), I thought it might be an opportunity to get our message across when ABS-CBN ambushed our band in one of our gigs at Magnet Katipunan. At first, I was uneasy (not to mention quite surprised and annoyed) when they decided to bombard our privacy during the gig. Without asking my permission, they were shooting me once I arrived and they even followed me and my bandmates around the bar. It was only after a while when someone actually introduced themselves to us and asked us if they could interview us for PBB. We were very reluctant to do it but decided that we would for the sake of our bandmate and friend. Later, we thought that it would also be a great opportunity to voice out our opinions. We knew that ABS would probably not even air our comments, but we expressed our criticisms anyway with the hope that the writers/producers/etc would actually listen to the remarks and take some of them into consideration. We told them some of the things which I mentioned above, like how they should be more responsible in their portrayals of the housemates. We questioned the existence of a negative bias against Mich, while none existed towards the other housemates. We told them that they should show the finer points of Filipino culture rather than just showing the low points (the chismis, bickering, constant drama). We also gave a message to the viewers that they shouldn’t believe everything the media shows because they edit the footages to depict what it is that agrees with their script and their vision, regardless of whether it is fair to the housemates involved. We said a lot of things which we knew wouldn’t please ABS. But that is what we are about as UP students/alumni, as a band, and as individuals. We speak up against injustice, and we speak up for what we believe in, even if it means going against media giants such as ABS-CBN. (And which also goes to show that we are NOT using PBB for our band’s publicity. If we were, wouldn’t it be a lot easier just to kiss their asses? :)

But what the heck (let’s omit the profanity because this seems to offend, to a very high degree, viewers and supporters of PBB.. and yes, I say this with sarcasm) happened? PBB did to us the very thing that we were fighting against—the unfair portrayals of people involved in the show. I didn’t think they would stoop that low, we just thought that “hey, they probably wouldn’t air this because they wouldn’t want their ratings to go down..” But no, ABS is lower than low. They told us that they would use the interview as our message to Mich. Instead, they edited the footage in such a way that is FAVORABLE to the viewers’ impression of the show. They omitted our call to the masses not to believe everything the media portrays, they omitted our comments about showing the finer points of Filipino culture, they omitted the part where we questioned the biases and predispositions of the show. Instead, what did they present? They gave us each a measly phrase (such as “Di spoiled brat si Mich!”, “They only show the weird side”) and emphasized the parts when our drummer used profanity. Then, in the end, they had this note that said something like “PBB respects the opinions of viewers” to make them look like a noble network being attacked by…what did their supporters call us again? “Paranoid bandmates na nagdrudrugs na walang pinagaralan” to put it in a nutshell.

This incident is only the insignificant tip of the iceberg but it is a perfect example of how strong the media’s bias is in affecting the consciousness of the people. I like what one of the girls wrote in the PBB forum regarding our interview: “Eh bat kinuhanan pa ng PBB? Siempre meron din silang hidden agenda hahaha!! Sila ang makakakuha ng simpatya at di yun banda... kase kung delikado talaga sa imahe ng show yon, kukuhanan ba naman yon! siempre hinde!”

Amen to that miss. This is what we were trying to get across to the audience during our interview. We wanted to tell the people to look outside of the box. What the media shows us is not the plain, gospel truth. ABS was perhaps, and most likely, threatened by the things we said to them in the interview, hence, they launched this personal attack on us. And yes, I am taking this as an attack. They purposively edited the footage to make us look shallow and ill-mannered (“hindi sya kulot salot ##### naman oh!” )and took out all the things that could open the consciousness of the masses. As we have mentioned in our interview, ABS doesn’t have to sacrifice the well being of the people involved in the show to get ratings. Now, look what they have done to our band, and to us as individuals. We are not even directly involved in the show but they used our genuine desire to make our voices heard to makes us look bad and to gather the sympathy of the viewers, and worse, to continue to lead them into the dark. Shame on you ABS-CBN. Kaunting Ethics naman sana. Although you may be the Goliath, this little David will not stay quiet regarding your injustices. And hopefully, this little article will also stir up emotions of the readers to open their minds and to critically evaluate what the media feeds us. It it those in power who control how events and people are being portrayed. However, if all us little Davids can each speak up, then we can help shape and redefine how humanity and social events are being shown to the Filipino people.

(note: my bf posted this dun sa thread about our interview sa abs forum. yun nga lang medyo close minded talaga mga tao dun. we posted it there to educate the people and not to argue with them. unfortunately, only about 2 people got the point. the rest were to dumb or lazy to really read what the article pointed out, and they were already close minded dahil lang sa fact na nagmumura yung isang member ng dbt. that's all they were repeating over and over again. sad, but at least i tried right? :)


>>repost lang from DBT.. kay rin yata galing to..

GO GRRRRLS..

http://community.livejournal.com/dbtbangbangbang/16887.html

=)

great day.. i just love this day.

Fell in love with Fallout Boy

Great lyrics.. Superb music .. =)

(I listened to them the whole time I was sick in my bed.

And may I just say.. that these guys are amazing! I just love these guys.. )

SUGAR WE'RE GOING DOWN

Am I more than you bargained for yet

I've been dying to tell you anything you want to hear

Cause that's just who I am this week

Lie in the grass, next to the mausoleum

I'm just a notch in your bedpost

But you're just a line in a song

(A notch in your bedpost, but you're just a line in a song)

Drop a heart, break a name

We're always sleeping in, and sleeping for the wrong team

We're going down, down in an earlier round

And Sugar, we're going down swinging

I'll be your number one with a bullet

A loaded God complex, cock it and pull it[x2]

Is this more than you bargained for yet

Oh don't mind me I'm watching you two from the closet

Wishing to be the friction in your jeans

Isn't it messed up how I'm just dying to be him

I'm just a notch in your bedpost

But you're just a line in a song

(Notch in your bedpost, but you're just a line in a song)

Drop a heart, break a name

We're always sleeping in, and sleeping for the wrong team

We're going down, down in an earlier round

And Sugar, we're going down swinging

I'll be your number one with a bullet

A loaded God complex, cock it and pull it[x2]

Down, down in an earlier round

And Sugar, we're going down swinging

I'll be your number one with a bullet

A loaded God complex, cock it and pull it

We're going down, down in an earlier round (Take aim at myself)

And Sugar, we're going down swinging (Take back what you said)

I'll be your number one with a bullet (Take aim at myself)

A loaded God complex, cock it and pull it

We're going down, down (down, down)

Down, down (down, down)

We're going down, down (down, down)

A loaded God complex, cock it and pull it

We're going down, down in an earlier round (Take aim at myself)

And Sugar, we're going down swinging (Take back what you said)

I'll be your number one with a bullet (Take aim at myself)

A loaded God complex, cock it and pull it

DANCE DANCE

She says she's no good with words but I'm worse

Barely stuttered out"A joke of a romantic" or stuck to my tongue

Weighed down with words too over-dramatic

Tonight it's "it can't get much worse" Vs.

"no one should ever feel like..

"I'm two quarters and a heart down

And I don't want to forget how your voice sounds

These words are all I have so I'll write them

So you need them just to get by

Dance, Dance

We're falling apart to half time

Dance, Dance

And these are the lives you'd love to lead

Dance, this is the way they'd love

If they knew how misery loved me

You always fold just before you're found out

Drink up its last call

Last resort

But only the first mistake and I...

I'm two quarters and a heart down

And I don't want to forget how your voice sounds

These words are all I have so I'll write them

So you need them just to get by

Why don't you show me the little bit of spine

You've been saving for his mattress, love

Dance, Dance

We're falling apart to half time

Dance, Dance

And these are the lives you'd love to lead

Dance, this is the way they'd love

If they knew how misery loved me

Why don't you show me the little bit of spine

You've been saving for his mattress (mattress, mattress)

I only want sympathy in the form of you crawling into bed with me

Dance, Dance

We're falling apart to half time

Dance, Dance

And these are the lives you'd love to lead

Dance this is the way they'd love (way they'd love)

Dance this is the way they'd love (way they'd love)

Dance this is the way they'd love

If they knew how misery loved me

Dance, Dance

Dance, Dance

Dance, Dance

Dance, Dance

Bounce

Have'nt written anything for days. Had a terrible... I mean TERRIBLE week.

Super busy with school.. with the thesis and stuff. I was sick for days...I was not able to go to school last saturday because my body was too weak. (really.. for the first time in my life... feeling ko lantang gulay akuu) that is why I missed 2 of my exams. haaaay.

Well.. speaking of me being sick. I was really touched to see how my sisters took great care of me while I was in my sick bed. Sure they made fun of me looking like a blob in the bed (harhar) Okay, they can be really mean at times.. I even called them my wicked sisters.. nyahaha.. (lalo na yung married ko na na kapatid hehe ) we sometimes fight about who's in charge with the remote control and argue if one of us is using the phone for so long that our personal calls can't get through and yelling at me if I tease Harriet and my pretty niece will b irritated and can't do nothing but to cry her tonsils out.. and my ever so concerned sisters/ Harriet's mom/ Harriet's Tita's will come to the rescue... jaraan..hehehe and for shouting at me for being so stubborn and for being such a klutz. ( I won't deny). I admit I have done some stupid, irrational, naughty, even evil things to make their blood pressure reach the high heavens. And even if i did some stupid things before, they are still there loving me and taking care of me they did a good job. I was touched. Para kaming mag boboypren... we fight hard.. pero we kiss and make up (a lot!) din agad.. WE LOVE EACH OTHER TO DEATH (kahit hindi halata..dinadaan lang sa joke..ang maging cheeeeezy LAGOT!)And I realized (again) what great sisters I have (naaaks. oi indi ako sipsip kasi inde naman nila alam na may blog ako no??!) Really... I can't imagine my life without them. As long as I have my sisters around me.. I will be alright. =) ay labyuuuuu mga kapatid!!! =)

Half FOOL / Half Empty

I dont have a problem.

Just because I drink more alcohol these past few days does not mean that I am carrying a heavy load. ( of course, not literally you idiot!)

I want to see those booze flowing in.

Being sober for months can be a bit boring... A couple of shots/bottles a day won't be thaaat bad right?

I found my Smirnoff by accident.

* --- *

Someone very dear to me is getting married (and I am not supposed to tell anybody because I am the only one who knows about it for now...)

I was shocked.. the same time happy *FINALLY*

*PANIC ATTACK*

Someone's coming home very .... VERY... soon.


I am scared.


I don't have a problem guys... really..


I mean...


Come on..


Oh .. Ok...


Just let meeee finish this drink.




*for Ate Pam, Karla, Sparkle, Ruth, Len, Jess
Don't worry about it. I can manage. (I think..)

The Picto-Personality Test You are a person who lives in the moment and is passionate about whatever and whoever you love. When alone, you appreciate being able to do nothing if you want to, and setting your own pace for things. You are adventurous, always up to do the most extreme things. You have a certain recklessness that makes people very attracted to you. In the future you will be wise and healthy.

Take this Test at QuizGalaxy.com

Got this neat quiz from RED HEAD GLAMBOI... Bryant (jaraaaaan!) ^_^

Nobela Lyrics - Join The Club

Ngumiti kahit na napipilitan
Kahit pa sinasadya
Mo akong masaktan paminsan-minsan
Bawat sandali na lang


Tulad mo ba akong nahihirapan
Lalo't naiisip ka
Hindi ko na kaya pa na kalimutan
Bawat sandali na lang


At aalis, magbabalik
At uuliting sabihin
Na mahalin, ka't sambitin
Kahit muling masaktan
Sa pag-alis ako'y magbabalik
At sana naman...


Sa isang marikit na alala'y
Pangitaing kayganda
Sana nga'y pagbigyan na ng tadhana
Bawat sandali na lang


Sumabay sa biglang pagkabahala't
Lumabis ang pagtataka
Tunay na pagsintang 'di alintana
Bawat sandali na lang

...... "at aaliiisssssssssssss...magbabaliiiiiiiiik" LSS na naman..I have heard of this song before sa RX..and I liked it a lot.. pero hindi ko pa alam ung title.. Until last week..I remembered that this was the song Master was playing when we were at the BOORATS nyu year parteee..haaay.mahal ko na talaga to. I have to get this album na talaga.. maganda rin ung LUNES and LOVE iS.. o_0

Just the mere thought of you makes my heart crumble into tiny little pieces...

*** Geeez.. Dapat tulog na ko ngayon.. pero I had to submit my report pa..Badtrip talaga pag hindi DSL. ANG BAGAAAAAAAAAAAAAAL!! I feel sad na naman..because I caught a tiny uber little glimpse of the e-mails he sent to me... And as usual.. it makes me happy and sad at the same time. Happy because I know that we haD something special before.. and that for a moment.. (maybe only for me) what we had was real.. and SAD at the same time...because that something special before, meant nothing to him now in the present and in the future... And perhaps.. I was the only one who thought it was REAL..


++ grrrrrrrrrr.. matutulog na lang nag iinarts na naman.. nanjan naman si *bleeep bleeeep* ...dun ka na lang...

***hindi eh..OK nga sha..Pero.. walang magic..

++ magic magic ka pa jan.. anong gagawin mo sa magic?nakakain ba un? bakeeeeet.. yang si *toot toot* me magic nga.. anong nangyari?!


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Good Music.. Great Times

-- I've been a Bad... BAD GIRL...--


.... Just wanted to post these pictures... Actually I did not get the look that I wanted because the pictures are on top of each other and I can't get the cute picture of me and Kat on top..buti na lang cute ung posing namin ni Bryantot! hehehe...oks na rin! ^_^

***feeling a little bit giddy yihiiii! (thanks for the message..^_^)

***currently listening to: Don't Go Away by Oasis

~Taking a break from reading Cardio and Respi chapters from Black...wala lang... update ko lang to... Kahit na balibaliko and English.. oks lang..this is my page.. and one way of "harnessing" my writing skills.. (kung meron nga..hehe)

~I need a breather.. dumudugo na utak ko.. Info overload!!!

~Currently listening to Eheads - Sembreak

~My good friend Norie and I had a "fight".. actually it happened yesterday and it was about me making "excuses" not to go to the "gathering" today. Well.. I really wanted to go but I have my hands full doing all the school work. I have exams coming up, reports that needs to be finished, and finding infos for our thesis. Don't get me wrong, I love my friends to death but I have to focus on my studies first.. I can't be with them everytime they wanted me to be there. I feel pressured, sad and somehow guilty because they feel that I've been neglecting them as a friend..haaaaaaay... I feel like I am a bad friend... =(

.............................Pssst!Wag ka na magaleeet... =(

~still waiting for Cher's pictures ...can't wait to see them!!! hehe..

~While waiting for Cher's pictures... Shempre walang magawa..kung hindi magkalikot ng friendster.. ok.. "View Friends" -click- checking for new pictures ni jess.. may bagong testi si chou..new profile ni ghie...may shout out si JT.. and wapaaaaak! nag online pala si "manong" 5 days ago.. hmnn.. bale..4 ngaun.. minus 5 days.. e di mga 31 sha nag OL!! And still..no email for me.. nada. I was not surprised na actually... He started this "cold treatment" thing for months now.. and I dont expect him find any way of communicating with me. And honestly... It does not hurt as much as before. Maybe my heart grew numb.. or maybe it already has coped up.. siguro sabi nya (okkkeeei na.. tama na.. suko na ko...) Ok..it hurts a little sometimes.. that is unavoidable.. and that is NORMAL.. hmpf! Pero.. generally speaking.. nothing to worry about.. I am doing great. :D (wak ka na kumontraaa!!owkei?hehe)

~ I JUST LOVE EHEADS... haaay.. ELY bakeeeet?bakeeet mo kelangang umalis.. buhuhuhu..

~currently listening to: (i really like this one..)

HARD TO BELIEVE

I find it hard to believe

That all the pain that we are feeling

Has some meaning in this world

It's so hard to believe

That everything you see is different

From the things that you've been told

I wanted life to be this way

Just a little bit of love could mean so much

O please don't take it all away

But with you heaven is still close enough to touch

I find it hard to believe

That someone up there is waiting

With arms open wide and smiling

It's so hard to believe

When someone told me that your suffering

Is what you get for living

I wanted life to be this way

Just a little bit of love could mean so much

O please don't take it all away

But with you heaven is still close enough to touch

Because your love is still the only thing

That matters in this world

The only thing I can believe...

Found My Favorite!!!

The long wait is finally over.

We (me and borgy) completed the 21 stickers needed for my

Starbucks Planner "Find Your Favorite" (2006). Yiiipppeeeeee!!!

(Exact date of acquisition: December 28, 2005)

It was not easy to get this planner... my sister and I had to literally endure "eyes-wide-open" nights just to get those ever so precious stickers. (hehheehe) Not to mention having big holes in our pockets for buying those tall lattes, grande espresso and venti frapps... (my.. my... those drinks were not that cheap at all!)




Well..after I laid my hands on the planner.. it was all worth it. This planner is much much better than the 2005 edition. (though i really liked that 2005 edition because of the envelop thingy.. but it was really too bulky!) The new edition is slimmer and more "sophisticated" in style (you can practically bring it anywhere..because it is so handy).Easier to write down things because it has lines like your regular notebook... ( with the previous edition.. my handwriting went wayward from hell into the heavens because there were no lines to guide me!!) This edition also have an address book which is nice (for easy access if I happen to forget the number of a friend..), Every month is a different flavor..GC's every month for a coffee treat for me and a friend.( We had an agreement that I can have the Planner and Ate can keep the GC's ... :D)


And what I love about Starbucks planners are the Artworks inside..I immediately fell in love with the 2005 edition because of these.. but this new edition was definitely better... the artworks inside are so FABULOUS!! Their artwork brings an "artisan" feeling to the whole planner..I love the way they captured range of emotions that a cup of coffee can bring to a person..wether it be euphoric, nostalgic, reflections, crazy obsessions, or just plain thoughts for the day..sort of an elegant scrap book..

Uhmnn.. after all this craze.. I just want to make this planner really worth it. Just like the 2005 planner.. but definitely better..After all... all the things that I can't post here in my blog or anywhere in public.. I can safely entrust it to my ever reliable planner/journal/diary...Lots of things happened these past few weeks.. I am just too lazy to post it here.. (nyahehhe) Just let me gather all my wits (if any..) so I can prolly share them all to you next time....Cheers to all!!!! ^_^

Happy New Year to ya' all!